Remember those punching bag inflatable things from when you were a kid? The bottom was filled with sand and the rest with air. I remember getting one for Easter one year. I think it was a bunny and I remember feeling bad hitting it too hard. I'm sure you can figure where I'm going with this. That punching bag that quickly pops back up? Yeah, that's what I feel like.
I've recently taken some harder hits than I threw as a kid. But, I'm back up and ready for some more abuse. I'm just hoping I don't pop anytime soon.
Today was an insanely long day. My appointment was at 7:30 and after I had to drop off paperwork at my boss' house. From there I saw 8 kids for therapy. There was a meeting thrown in there as well and a cancellation I wasn't informed of, so I still drove all the way to the daycare. I came home and took a nice nap on the couch.
My appointment was fine today. They drew blood and checked all of my levels: progesterone (0.6), estrogen (<20), LH (.47), TSH (2.45) FSH (4.1), and HCG (4.1). I asked about polyps and that being a possible factor in a chemical pregnancy. The NP said she didn't see any on ultrasound. I then informed her that I had them in the past and that they were only visible with the hysterosonogram. She asked if that was something I was interested in repeating and I said it was.
I was given the all clear to start estrogen today since my HCG level was low enough. I am supposed to take it 3x's/day. With my last frozen transfer I took it once a day and remember it made me pretty nauseous. I hope it is better this time around. I also start back up on baby aspirin and dexamethasone. It was a nice 4 days off.
I have another appointment this Thursday to recheck my HCG levels and to do the hysterosonogram. I am hoping I don't have any polyps, but I need to do this for my own peace of mind. I have another appointment for the following Wednesday where they will check my lining and I will do intralipids. It is an IV and takes about an hour and a half. W is requesting the afternoon off from work so he can be there to keep me company. From there, as long as everything looks good we can schedule the transfer. The NP today a possible day could be the 19th. Looks like I will be spending some of my 2WW in Mexico. Yes please!
I'm so proud of you for getting back up after all these nasty punches! :) Ooooh a 2ww in Mexico sounds heavenly. They sell all kinds of cool fertility jewelry and statues in Mexico too ;)
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong- please know that I'm using you as my inspiration :)
ReplyDeleteI have my appt tomorrow and will be asking about a couple of the same things- IV Intralipids and a repeat HSG or Saline Sono. I just want to make sure things are cleared out, 'ya know? It's good to know your HCG levels dropped off so quickly. I'm hoping mine do the same. Similar situation, I can start BCP for the next cycle as soon as they're low enough.
Yeah. This blows, but it won't blow us over, right?
(ps you should get rid of your word verification. all the cool kids are doing it. peer pressure)
No no no no no. I'm way behind. I've been in my own little cloud of sadness. Good God my heart hurts for you. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you for your positivity...stay strong! Looks like we both have FETs in our future. Hoping and praying for BFPs that stick.
((hugs)) Liz. Good luck this cycle!
ReplyDeleteI just started reading your blog, and I have to say it has been helping me through everything we are going through. We just had our 3rd miscarriage, one from natural, one from IUI, and this last one was our first round of IVF, and was a chemical pregnancy as well. I feel the same way you do, I woke yesterday and got this burst of energy to fight for round 2. You seem to have a positive outlook on it all, and it helps me and I'm sure others to hear your confidence. I know none of this makes sense to any of us who have infertility problems, but I have faith that it will happen. It sounds like you feel the same. I will be fighting along with you, and hoping good things for you, and W. Enjoy your vacation, you deserve it!!!
ReplyDeleteHere's to another round AND a fresh start! This cycle has all the potential in the world...keep going! You WILL get there!
ReplyDeleteI just started reading your blog a few weeks ago and realized we go to the same clinic. You were about a week before me and we found out Monday that our first IVF failed. We are now gonna start an FET so again I will be right behind you. Best of luck and thanks for blogging, I dont feel so alone!
ReplyDeleteBest of luck!
ReplyDeleteI'm getting back on the horse, too, but I'll be a month behind you since I'm doing a fresh cycle. I just got my big box of meds yesterday. Happy happy joy joy.
What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger, right? :)