Ultrasound

Our ultrasound was Monday morning at 9:45. We headed down to NYC on Saturday evening and planned to spend all of Sunday in the city. Our friend's still have their empty (minus a bed) apartment in Queens that they gave us the keys to again. It's so nice having a free and empty place to stay right in the city. 

Empire State Plaza lit up for President's Day Saturday night

We slept in Sunday morning and took our time before we headed into Manhattan. We took the subway in (after an extra little ride and some confusion) and first went to Central Park. We saw all of the horse drawn carriages and looked out at the park for a bit. We were pretty hungry at that point so headed to look for some lunch. 

We stopped at an Italian restaurant and got some amazing soup and pizza. When we were totally full we went to FAO Schwarz. We spent quite a bit of time browsing around and had a great time. We picked out and bought a really neat NYC children's book. 

Giant Twizzlers at FAO Schwarz

Our next destination was then Grand Central Station but along the way I wasn't feeling great so we stopped at St. Bart's to take a little rest. We sat and relaxed in the quiet for a bit and then both lit a candle. 

In Grand Central there was a couple taking wedding photos so we watched them for a bit and then got a smoothie and sat a little longer. We admired the beautiful building, looked for a unique gift shop that was recommended and closed, and did some great people watching.

 From Grand Central we then headed to Broadway/Times Square to look for discounted show tickets. The line was really short and we bought tickets for an Off-Broadway show for that evening. We went into a couple of gift shops and bought an I Love NY onesie we've wanted to buy for a while. We also got a little outfit that had New York taxi cabs all over it. 

Since I knew I would need my Lovenox shot during the time the show would be going on, and we had some time before the show, we went back to the apartment to grab it. It was absolutely freezing out so we warmed up at the apartment for a short time. We grabbed some amazingly delicious and fast dinner at a Tibetan/Nepalese restaurant. We rushed to get to the show and really enjoyed it. It was a super small theatre and there were two actors in the whole show. I decided next time I want to see something bigger and on Broadway, but we still had a great time. 

Without a nap at all yesterday and with our busy day I fell asleep shortly after returning to the apartment. 

I woke up this morning feeling terrified and so nervous for everything. I made the mistake of looking last week at my blog to read about my symptoms and the way I felt when I had a missed miscarriage two years ago. I found out the day we found there was no heartbeat was the same date of my appointment today (Feb 18th). Finding this out made me even more terrified. 

I could hardly eat anything but forced myself to take some bites of cereal. We gave ourselves plenty of time and arrived super early. We sat in the car a bit and then decided to head in about 15 minutes before my scheduled appointment. The office was super packed and I knew we would be waiting a while. We waited nervously for about an hour before being called in. 

Once called in the nurse asked me how I was feeling and I told her I was really nervous. I asked if they would be doing blood work and she said as long as everything went well they wouldn't. She told me Dr. Br.averman would be doing the ultrasound. 

We waited another 10 minutes or so before he came in. When he asked me how I was I told him I was terrified. I said he didn't doubt it and got right down to business. He told us he may not say anything initially and that we shouldn't be alarmed if it happened.

 "Wandy" went in and within a few second W and I both saw two little sacs. Pretty quickly he confirmed what we thought and said that there were two sacs. He then zoomed in on them and said there were yolk sacs. A few seconds more and he detected one, and then two little heartbeats. He pointed them out and then tried to turn on the sound to hear them. He said because I was breathing so heavy (being so nervous) that we might not hear them or get a measure. We did not hear them and he said it was likely they had just started beating. From there he looked at my ovaries and then looked at the doppler blood flow to my uterus. He took a while doing this and I had definitely calmed down a bit at that point. Once he was done with that he went back and looked at the heartbeats again. He congratulated us and said something about this being their first appearance together. 

You can't see much, but there's definitely two! One only looks smaller because of the angle. 

He pointed out something about the wave of the blood flow and said he wanted to keep an eye on it. I think it had something to do with the way the blood flow reverberated or something. He wanted us to come back in two weeks, but said everything looks great and that we shouldn't be concerned about the blood flow thing. He said usually it resolves itself and thats why he wants to look again in two weeks.

W and I are so excited and scared. It really doesn't seem real at all and we are waiting for it all to sink in. Two little heartbeats!! It's so hard to believe that this may be happening.