Sunday, January 22, 2012

IVF #2 CD 3 First Tears

On friday night we went out for a nice dinner. Since my shots fell around the time we were at dinner I had to excuse myself and go to the bathroom to do them. I bent the Lupron needle slightly and realized I probably should bring extras for times like this. Everything went fine and we continued our dinner. 
My shots ready to go on the back of the toilet, so sanitary!
I was so tired on Friday that I napped after work, napped after dinner, and then fell asleep just fine around 11. 

Last night W was watching the Syracuse basketball game. I gave him a 5 minute warning for my shots and he didn't seem very interested or concerned. He then got excited because he remembered the TV upstairs and ran upstairs to turn the game on up there. Usually he grabs my meds from the fridge to help, but no go. There were about 5 minutes left in the game and SU was losing for the first time this season.

 I became upset to say the least and told him not to worry about it (hoping he would get the hint that he really should worry about it.) He said fine and went downstairs to watch the rest of the game. 

At that point I was really upset. I don't need him to do the shots, but it's nice to have him in the room for emotional support. Of course I had to finish one pen of Gonal-F and open another so that meant an extra shot. I also couldn't seem to get a pocket of air out of the syringe for the Menopur and became frustrated with it. 

W came upstairs half-way through this ordeal and I locked him out since I was upset. Then the tears started flowing. I told him I felt like he wasn't invested in this process and wished he could just be there to support me. I told him it would be nice to have him at some monitoring appointments since he's never even offered. The tears continued for a while and we talked, eventually reaching an agreement. He told me that this IVF cycle is more important than anything else right now and promised to show that to me. Hopefully it will be true. 
We took the dogs cross country skiing yesterday. We all had a great time. The dogs were running around like crazy when we first got there. It was nice to get out and get some exercise since I haven't been great about it lately. We went for about an hour and a half, and by the end I was definitely ready to be back at the car. 

Last night we saw The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo at 10:00. It was a good movie, but I may have fallen asleep briefly. There was a couple there who brought their two children (about 2 years and under 1). The baby kept coughing the entire movie and it was upsetting that they brought their children out so late, especially with one being sick. Nice move parents. 

All in all, it's been a nice relaxing weekend. W better keep his promise and be more helpful tonight with the shots. I'm sure those were just the first tears of many to come since I'm hopped up on hormones. Good times!


  1. Hugs to you. Sometimes our boys just don't seem to get it...

  2. I had that breakdown with my husband when we were going through our iuis. I had to go into office about 3 times a week. After a long talk, he was there with me everytime. I know that these stupid ferility meds dont make our emotions any better either.

    Cross country skiing with your dogs? Sounds like a blast!

  3. Well, glad to hear the hubs came around cause that was kind of a jackass move! It's not just YOU trying to have a baby here! Also glad to hear he'll be coming to your appts, I think it should be standard for all husbands to come to ALL appts. I just tell my husband WE have an appt and never mention if it's one he's supposed to attend or not ;-)

  4. I felt the same way about my shots and my husband's lack of involvement (especially b/c he was also watching sports on TV!). They just don't understand what a huge emotional investment it is to be giving yourself those shots. I'm glad you talked about things.

  5. I think those boys don't fully understand the extent of the emotional instability that all those hormones bring on. I think sometimes it takes them seeing the tears and angst to realize they need to step up an participate.

    I can' believe there were children in that movie! I saw it last, so not appropriate!

  6. Gotta love MEN huh?! Can't live with them, can't kill em, can't live without em. LOL I hope things keep going well.

  7. Ohhh I know those emotional moments all too well!! What? They brought little kids like that to an adult movie??? And sick kids? Wowwww. Hang in there with this girl! Sometimes the tears are necessary and make us feel a bit better afterwards. The husbands might not agree...but whatever! :)