Monday, September 12, 2011

Getting there

Only one week until my next appointment with Dr.S. This is to do sonohysterogram #2. I have very mixed feelings about everything at this point. I have been on birth control pills for almost 5 weeks now, just waiting to get to my next appointment.

Taking a forced break didn't do great things for my mindset. I lost momentum, positivity. I put my vehicle into neutral and didn't move for weeks while the traffic continued around me. 

I wore shorts to work today. When I looked down and saw how hairy my legs were, I knew it had been too long since I had had an ultrasound or appointment. During my IVF cycle in July my legs were shaved so consistently. Nowadays I do it maybe 1x/week. Don't worry, I have shaved since my last appointment : )

I hadn't thought much about my miscarriage lately but there is one reminder. On Facebook my neighbor as a little girl (who is 3 years younger than me) is pregnant and due around the same time I was. Today her status read: "9 months pregnant and baby could come anytime in the next 1-6 weeks! I have started getting some mild cramping on and off everyday... my body is getting ready. I wonder when she will come :)" I really should block her, but I guess I want to torture myself watching her belly grow bigger and bigger.

I had to go to the dentist today. Last Thursday I was snacking on something and then noticed part of my molar had chipped off. I went today and got it all fixed but I think I may dread sitting in the dentists' chair more than reclining in a chair with stirrups. That's a tough one....what about you, what is your preference? Dentist or RE?


  1. RE!!! Going to the dentist freaks me out!! Hope you can get back into traffic soon :) Love the new blog look btw

  2. I was nodding in agreement the whole time I read this post, I hate losing the momentum- it makes it so hard to start up again. And as for the legs- I am right there with you!

    I would choose the RE over the dentist any day- that sounds SO weird to me!

  3. Lol, definitely the RE! The dentist hurts me and I get nothing out of it. The RE may hurt me at times, and completely violates me every single time, but at least there I'm doing it for the hopes that I will get a baby out of it.

  4. Oh god, definitely RE. I think that says a lot about dentists...

    I know what you mean about losing steam on breaks. I find that too sometimes. It's almost better for me to be 'in treatment' because I take things more seriously (diet, exercise, yoga, calming my mind, etc) but you have time to get back in it...

  5. I know exactly what you mean about losing momentum too... I really don't like that feeling and lead to my recent blogging break. Will be cycling with you it sounds like. Love to you always xoxo