Monday, August 8, 2011

Not sure

I wrote last night that I wasn't nervous about my appointment. I woke up this morning feeling completely different and so anxious. My stomach was in knots, my head hurt a bit, and I had zero appetite. I guess once you have something bad happen at an appointment you forever fear it happening again. This morning I was so scared of them finding fluid again. 

Guess what? 

My fears were confirmed. My lining was triple striped and great at 12, but there was a small pocket of fluid again. The most frustrating part of this is that it wasn't there 10 days ago when I went in for my baseline ultrasound. This means I had fluid last month, it went away, and now more/different fluid is back. 

I have been getting ultrasounds for a year now consistently. Before last month I never had any issues with fluid in my uterus. Now it seems to be a problem I can't avoid. 

I haven't heard from my RE or the nurse yet, but I am expecting the call will be from Dr. S. I am going to ask him if we can drain it to see what the hell is going on and then monitor and possibly still do the transfer. I don't think he will be down for this, but I guess you never know. 

I'm starting to wonder whether this is ever going to happen for us. I'm really starting to think we should pursue adoption or take a break from treatments. I am so frustrated right now!


  1. So weird that you mention this, because I just found out that I had fluid in my uterus too (before triggering...thanks u/s tech for letting me know) This is the second time this has happened in 4 months. Where is it coming from!!! It's SO FRUSTRATING. Hopefully an aspiration will help. I would be curious to hear what your RE thinks is causing it...

    It just sucks.

  2. Ugh, that totally is so frustrating :) I know that "I want to give up" feeling. But something always keeps pushing us forward. Im sorry it was a sucky appt, maybe the dr will be on board with what you want to try? Hugs...

  3. So sorry for the frustration! Geeze, why can't everything just go smoothly, you know? I hope the call from you clinic comes with a plan of action and sets your mind at ease. Hugs to you and hang in there!

  4. How frustrating for you! I hope that the clinic can help in some way and dont give up even though it feels like your at your wits end! hugs! x

  5. :( Sorry. Praying here is something that can be done that will change up your luck.