Aunt Flo decided to finally show up today. This cycle was 42 days. The first two weeks of this cycle I had hope. I felt positive about getting a shot at a natural pregnancy. I was relaxed.
On the 13th and 14th days of this cycle I had positive ovulation tests. For the next two weeks I hoped. I peed on things only to find a single line every time.
Then AF didn't show up two weeks after the positive tests. I went into my clinic for blood work and an ultrasound and was told I ovulated. I didn't ask when, but don't think they would have been able to tell me even if I had asked.
The past two weeks have been extremely difficult. I have processed the pregnancy announcement from my sister all while waiting for my period to show up. I was depressed, confused, and most of all angry that my body once again failed me.
42 days. I thought Metformin was supposed to help regulate cycles. No dice on that one. Is a pregnancy even possible with a cycle that long? I know I ovulated, but would the egg be any good if ovulated on day 28? I highly doubt it.
This past week was tough. I am starting to get excited that I am going to be an aunt. It's just hard. We are so ready for it to be our turn.
On a different note Aunt Flo showing up gives me a fresh start. It gives me some positivity back. It makes time pass a little more quickly. I'm not rushing time because I love summer, but I hate feeling like we are stuck in neutral. I need to be moving towards that whole mommy goal.