Transferred

Everything went great today. The two embryos they picked survived the thaw just fine and we still have five embryos in storage.

We arrived on time to a crazy packed waiting room. I guess that's what happens the Monday after a holiday weekend. We waited about a half hour and then W gave up waiting and went to use the bathroom. As soon as he left the room the nurse called my name. He must have heard because he came right back.

The nurse schedued my beta for December 5'th and then left the room to get my Dr. K. I saw there was the picture of our embryos on the counter so W and I checked it out while we waited.

I changed into the sexy hospital gown and relaxed in the bed as the Valium kicked in. The transfer beds at my clinic don't have stirrups and are more like massage tables so it was pretty easy to relax there. We laughed as the ultrasound screen was a freeze frame of someone else's uterus. 

Finally Dr. K came in the room. Everything was quick and easy. Once he was finished he shook both of our hands and left. I stayed laying down for about 15 minutes and then headed over for some free acupuncture.

I haven't seen my acupuncturist in a while since I felt like it was a lot of money to spend and it didn't seem to be making a huge difference. After placing the needles he stayed to chat quite a bit. He asked if I had named our embryos yet and I said I hadn't. He told me I should name at least one of them after him. Then he left and I relaxed and eventually fell asleep. I had slept horribly last night so didn't have much trouble falling asleep. 

When I went to leave I saw it was snowing and beautiful outside. As we drove closer to our house there was no longer snow and I was a bit disappointed. W had to go to work so I watched the movie Elf, ate some lunch, and then fell asleep for a bit on the couch to a comedian on Netflix.

All in all, it was a very relaxing and perfect day. I'm SO hoping at least one of those little embryos decide to stick around. Either way, it's completely out of my hands at this point. I'm glad to have something to do tomorrow as I'm returning to work after five days off. I'm a little concerned it's going to be a huge shock after all of my recent relaxing. 

Tomorrow I have yoga and book club. I'm sad that I won't be able to hang out late due to having to do my PIO and Delestrogen shots around 9, but also my need for sleep. I haven't decided whether I will go back to acupuncture on Wednesday, but we will see. That was what he recommended to assist with implantation. 

 I'm keeping my fingers crossed, my stress levels lows, and trying to stay as happy as possible this next week. It shouldn't be too hard with the way W has been treating me. I'm so lucky to have him!

Oh, and here are the little guys we transferred today. I didn't ask about grades or anything so I'm blissfully ignorant.

ICLW Week (International Comment Leaving Week)

I kept seeing ICLW mentioned on many of the blogs I follow and finally decided to see what it's all about. I was amazed to see the HUGE list of others struggling with infertility. It definitely makes me feel like this is a larger community than I ever realized. Welcome to anyone who is new!! I hope you enjoy my blog.

I will recap our journey to date:
2003 Met my future hubby working at a local restaurant and we became friends. We both had significant others at the time.
2004 The "summer of love" with W. I call it this because I had a boyfriend at the time, but I fell in love with this new guy after I spent as much time with him as I could. He took me out for drinks on my 21st B-Day because my boyfriend at the time wasn't 21 yet.
Summer of 2005 W and I officially get together this summer and start dating, I go back to my last semester of undergrad while he moves to Wyoming.
Dec 2005 I graduate a semester early and move out to Wyoming with W after Christmas. We move in together.
Winter 2006-2007 we spend this winter again being ski bums in Wyoming. We work for the ski resort and marriage and kids seem a far way off.
Summer 2007 I start a graduate program in Speech-Language Pathology and we move back to NY.
Fall 2007 W starts classes in order to pursue a doctorate program in Physical Therapy.
Summer 2008 W starts his DPT program, we get engaged!!
Spring 2009 I graduate with my master's degree from Ithaca College, I get off BCP's (birth control pills) in order to loose the extra pounds for the wedding. We use other forms of birth control.
10/10/2009 We get married
June 2010 I finally convince my hubby that we should start trying for a family. He is scared and thinks it will happen right away, difficult for him because he doesn't graduate until May 2011. I buy the book "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" and fervently read the entire thing.
July 2010 I go to my regular OB/GYN for a pre-conception check-up and ask them to run blood work since I had a few longer (40-45 day) cycles off the pill. The call the next week and tell me my testosterone levels are high and PCOS is suspected. Referred to an endocrinologist.
July 2010 I go to a local endocrinologist-worst appointment of my life. He tells me I DEFINITELY have PCOS (without using any specific criteria or doing an ultrasound) and wants to put me on Metformin. Tells me I am not ovulating and should not try to conceive at this point.
August 2010 Make an appointment with a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) and find the BEST doctor I have ever had. First appointment lasts hours and I am sent for an ultrasound during same appointment. Ultrasound find 8 cm cyst on left ovary as well as "ring of pearls" on both ovaries. RE prescribes BCP to hopefully shrink cyst.
September 2010 Return to RE for scan to see whether cyst has gone done. No changes, laparoscopy surgery scheduled for the end of Oct.
October 2010 Laparoscopy reveals cyst was actually located on my fallopian tube. Cyst is simple and filled with fluid, drained. HSG reveals both tubes blocked. Mild endometriosis found on uterosacral ligaments and cauterized.
November 2010 Post-Op appointment to discuss next moves. RE suggests Lupron for endometriosis in hopes it will clear my tubes or IVF. We make the decision to move forward with IVF.
December 2010 Trial transfer, sonohysterogram, tons of bloodwork, semen analysis. Everything come back fine. Cyst has returned and is about 6-7 cm. Get all the necessary meds for IVF.
January 2011 Start Lupron injections. Proceed with Lupron for 2 weeks and wait for Aunt Flo (AF.) AF never comes and go to RE for suppression check. Early gestational sac found in uterus. Surprise pregnancy!! Progesterone started and ultrasound scheduled for 2 weeks. Beta 2057
Febrauary 4 2011 First ultrasound reveals embryo measuring 5 weeks 6 days. Heart beat of 101 (a little low) revealed. Beta levels not rising very fast. Beta 3972. Follow-up ultrasound scheduled for the 18th.
February 18 2011 Ultrasound reveals embryo stopped growing at 6 weeks, no heartbeat found. D&C Scheduled for the 24th as well as laparoscopy to entirely remove cyst.

Although we haven't actually been trying to get pregnant for too long, it really feels like we have been on a roller coaster. This process hasn't been easy, but I have some positives to make from it all:

1. I have an AMAZING husband who supports me fully and is extremely compassionate and caring. I knew this before, but our relationship only gets stronger with each struggle we encounter together.

2. We were able to conceive on our own.

3. My tubes aren't blocked like we thought.

4. I do ovulate on my own (although I think large doses of Vitamin D really helped this process). It may       not happen often, but it did happen at least once.

I am looking to the future and am hopeful we will become parents. I know our journey is no where near over though. Thanks for reading!!

I went to work today and it helped to make me realize that life does indeed continue. I had to get up SUPER early (5 AM) in order to shower and get out the door to make it to my 7 AM pre-op appointment. The appointment was fine and everyone I spoke to was super nice. Last time I went for the pre-op each person who came in the room asked me what procedure I was having done. Today nobody asked. I had to fill out a fetal demise form which wasn't easy, but the nurse was very kind about the whole thing. The drew blood, took a urine sample, gave me instructions, and sent me on my way. Out of curiosity I took a HPT yesterday to see if my HCG levels were falling. Unfortunately it was just as dark as the original ones. Seeing a positive pregnancy test was bittersweet. Thursday can't come soon enough!

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!! I hope everyone was able to celebrate in their own way and take the time to stop and appreciate everything our loved ones do for us. My hubby has been amazing the past month and has really picked up the slack for me around the house. He cooks and does all of the dishes already, but recently has been doing more of the other cleaning tasks. I have to admit, he isn't as thorough as me, but I can let that go. I appreciate everything he does for me so much.

We celebrated on Friday night after my hubby accidently spilled the beans about what he got me. Well, actually I told him I had an idea and he accidently spit the word out. He got me a Kindle and my first purchase was, of course, a pregnancy book (Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy.) I got him the T.V for the kitchen he had already seen and a mount so it can flip down from under the cabinets. I guess this makes him kitchen-bound for life. I can't say I don't LOVE the fact that he cooks all of our meals. 

We had a very low-key weekend and I spent most of Saturday relaxing in bed, napping and watching various things from my laptop. We went to a housewarming party on Saturday and had the in-laws over on Sunday. It is so tempting to tell people, but we want to wait until at least Friday when we can know everything is still going well. We have our appointment for 2:30 on Friday and I am feeling more relaxed about everything. Stressing definitely doesn't help. We originally said we would wait until 12 weeks to tell people, but my resolve is crumbling. If my Mom didn't have such a big mouth we probably would have told people already.

Even though some people say Valentine's Day is silly and we should appreciate each other every day, I think it is a nice to stop and really celebrate our love for each other. W, I appreciate you and everything you do for me.

In other news we booked a Vacation!!! We are Dominican Republic bound the third week of March. I can't wait!!